Then, I read this blog post... http://mosaicofmoms.com/?p=1633 . This post is simple and addresses how God is in control and knows what's best for you. I've always been a pretty patient person and have lived by the saying..."it's all in God's timing." I connected to this post in a different way. The author, Kerri Young, uses this scripture, “In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps.” Proverbs 16:9. It was at that moment I realized that this is what the Lord wants for me and as long as I lean on him, everything will be fine.
This pregnancy has not been an easy one. As of right now, I'm 22 weeks and 4 days along. My first 14 weeks were filled with every pregnancy symptom you could imagine: acne, stomach pains, morning, noon, and night sickness, fatigue, dizziness, and the list goes on. During my 15th week I started bleeding. This scare was beyond words. We had an ultrasound and the doctor determined I probably had a tear and it eventually healed on its own. During weeks 20-21 I had bronchitis. I do not wish this on anyone. It was viral so I had to let it take it's course. It lasted for over 2 weeks. I also found out I'm anemic so iron pills were prescribed. What do I have to show for all this physical pain...a BABY! That's the best part! I will get to hold my precious miracle sometime in November. This makes it all worth it!
If you look closely, you can see the heartbeat:)
Life is so strange. For so many years we have longed for another child but have always been happy with our little family. Now God has blessed us with another miracle. While life has changed in many ways for us already...some expected, some unexpected...we remain faithful that God is in control. The biggest change I've seen is in my miracle #1, Cooper. My eight year old boy has embraced his new brother and the many changes that have occurred. For years he has asked for a little brother or sister and we've assured him that someday his dream would come true. He has become a better student in school. His teacher told me she has seen such a positive change in him and that he works really hard to make good choices now. He helps me with everything: cleaning, lifting, grocery shopping, etc. Sometimes I find him doing things around the house without being told. We were at an auction the other day and a woman told Willie she wished all boys were as well behaved and respectful as him. This made Mom and Dad really proud.
Cooper got to feel Finn kick last Friday night. He giggled and laughed and it was such a joy to hear and feel my boys bonding. Cooper often kisses and hugs Finn, or should I say Finny as Cooper calls him. He talks to him and likes to wake him up. I never could have imagined this process would be so fun and emotional.
Cooper was so excited about getting his room ready for Finn. Within weeks of getting Finn's furniture, Cooper was ready to move him in. We were so blessed to find this changing table, crib, and mattress at a garage sale for only $75. Can you believe it!?!
I knew I had to have a glider just like I did with Cooper. Willie and I have been scouting out estate sales and auctions looking for a good one. When we came across this one at an auction I told Willie I had to have it. We ended up paying $50 for it! Thank you honey:)
Soon I will have three boys to love. No matter how I feel, these boys are always there to make me smile and laugh. God has given me such an amazing family already.
Come on Finn! Hurry up and get here so we can play with you!
